august 14th:

aaaa, finally starting to wrap up in my last class. whole thing has been a giant pain and i'll be glad to be done with it. i dont hate research but i do hate this class <3

HAD A REALLY GOOD HANG OUT W A FRIEND THE OTHER DAY!!! i ended up coming over bc i have having a rough time of it w The Horrors (life in general) the day prior and she suggested we hang out and i was very glad for a break. we talked about his MGS AU that he's been thinking about for a while and literally. his ideas are SO fucking cool so consistently. never a lame idea in their head, not ever. THEN we played pikmin 2 battle mode for a while, i ended up leading for a while but they ended up very nearly catching up to me (partially bc i felt bad w how agressive i was playing and laid off a bit but they got some REALLY good sneak plays in too. like one round they were one marble away from winning, went to go steal the marble at my base so i'd defend it, MEANWHILE they already had a backup marble on the way so getting mine didnt even matter, it was solely to distract me. good strategy). then we switched to pikmin 4, realized that battle mode in there is. honestly kind of A Lot since she hadn't played a pikmin game since she was a kid and having to adjust to there being A Dog and A Whole Bunch Of Other Stuff And A Bunch Of Rule Changes From 2 was a bit too much to process at the moment. so we started a story mode file and i just helped out w the rock-pitcher mode (i can just Shoot Things With Rocks to help). at some point i pointed out how all the names of the rescue ops are dog-related (shepherd, beagle, collin for collie, etc), and she responded with '...smeagol?' (AS IN LIKE??? SHEPHERD BEAGLE?) and we were FUCKING DYING for like 10 minutes over it. fuckin smeagol, man. he has the pikmins. we were gonna do the kojima name generator but it was late and she needed to get gas so we called it there and got gas and then she drove me home.

this week is mostly just like. wrapping stuff up w class, getting psychiatry stuff taken care of (hopefully going back on antidepressants that Actually Work this time bc my last doctor left me hanging for nearly a year), picking up prescriptions, checking in w my therapist. all about getting back on track, tying up loose ends. then i start doing my drivers ed again and looking at assistance in finding employment bc uhhhh!!! i need mony so i can not live with my parents anymore hopefully next year